They're inducing me tonight at 8:30 for a gentle, overnight labor-bringing-on. There's a reason for the nighttime induction: things could go faster and I may as well be there. Also, the high blood pressure is the reason for the induction so I'm sure they'll want to measure that every 15 minutes. This doesn't bode well for sleeping but it does almost guarantee a birth sometime tomorrow. I fear inducing will lead to a c-section but I'm pretty sure anything at this point may lead to one--and both Dr. Write and Mary Anne said the c-section isn't so horrid.
The thing I'm most afraid of is the hep-lock. That's when the put an iv-ready needle into your arm. Like that's conducive to sleep or restfulness. Also, I'm allergic to metal.
Still, I'll be glad this phase of the baby-having is over. Bring on the pain. Or, as Fellner tells me, think release, release. Because he's good with labor if not necessarily the baby-having kind. I will also imagine a tube of toothpaste and how my body should squeeze from the end, down. I will also think of otters because their heads can collapse like mice and they're slippery.